Typical Egyptian Male (Part 1)

1. He lost all his savings; Stock Market, Rayan, Private Business, you name it.
2. He would rather be with a Russian girl, or any East European nationality for that matter. She wouldn't cost him after he had lost his money.
3. You are not allowed to do what he does. And that ranges from the simple issues of smoking and friends of the opposite sex to losing your virginity before marriage.
4. Your mom sucks and you listen to everything your mom says. Ever wondered who shaped that twisted perception; it his bloody mom.
5. You are fake and you are running after him, and that's why whenever he sees you he talks about nothing except a crush over an East European girl or the "Acclaimed 100, 000 LE" he lost in the stock market.
6. He has no sense of privacy whatsoever. He can browse the files on your mobile even without your approval. If you tell him "What the hell are you doing?" His answer would be "What the hell do you have to hide?"
7. He generalizes. You girls want to marry a rich guy. You girls would make a man miserable. You girls don't wear dresses.
8. He assumes that he is god's gift from heaven to you, and you don't desreve him. Hence he asks you to go over the border for him. "We are going to live with my mom." "I am only 30 Kgs over weight." "My ex loved more than you do and you have to be like her."
9. He sends you SMSs that go like this: "Ana Ga3an". And I envy those girls who manage to resist answering by "ETFA7".
10. He always has a silly excuse; from traffic jam to the silly boss to the money he has to make to please. "Who do I do all that for? I do it for you." So does that mean that he would leave the job if you break up, or that he would work less??


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Part 2

I'm not even trying

This convo took place between myself and over 7 other people. I can't say enjoy, it is far from being fun.

Friend: Why do you have your personal message as bad mood.
Me: I am in a bad mood, I've been crying all morning
Friend: Anything went wrong?
Me: It has been a year since I left my previous job, during which I had not stopped looking for a job and I am still here
Friend: Work bothers us all, that's why we work
Me: I hate to repeat myself, my boss is a nightmare.
Friend: You chose it dear, live with it.
Me: It is not about the work, it is about having my boss as an example. Her life is a nightmare, she scares me.
Friend: Elaborate dear
Me: The melodrama, the loneliness, living alone. She has that life style and I am afraid of becoming her. I don't want to die alone, I don't want to die before I fall in love and live with the man I love.
Friend: You're still young.. you'll have plenty of time to feel this way when you're older live the moment.. don't spend your life waiting for a moment..
Me: Seeing your worst fears every day, doesn't transform you into an optimist
Friend: You are just stressed. It is PMT! Cheer up :)

The conclusion I reached the following day is: I have no compassion for her and I don't want to. I convinced myself that this is what's going to happen to me and to some of my friends eventually. I have to pretend that this life of loneliness is normal, acceptable and she is just spoiled.

Anticipating the pain

They always say that fear of the worst is actually worse then the occurrence thereof.

Fear is bad! But I am not afraid, I am rather acknowledging what I have to go through the experience, through the pain I don't want to go through. I have to witness the fulfillment of the promise of future agony and pain coming my way. Having been there, hearing the words for myself, was not enough preparation. "Unfortunately, the only one who is going to suffer is going to be you."

Being told that you would pay the price for a particular mistake, is not like the actual suffering and paying of the price that takes place later on.

Being prepared, being equipped, being surrounded by buffers in the form of friends and silly hang outs and pointless talk doesn't make the fact that pain is coming your way and more acceptable.

Now every single incident looks like life is looking at you in anger and enacting its revenge against you.

I preach the following lesson so often, but I have yet to learn it.

Knowing the harm coming your way, doesn't make life better in the present and doesn't elevate the pain in the future.

Conclusion:
There is no conclusion, just like there is no action, nor choice.
Knowledge of the future without the ability to change the current situation, is like freedom within 2x2 metres prison cell.